I know I am free. At last. As I no longer care to be found or seen. As those who found me, truly seeked me. And those who saw me, truly looked. .
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Quick. Silver.
It’s that time of day where the sea is transformed into a massive pool of quicksilver as the sun takes shelter for the night. Exquisitely beautiful. Deeply alluring. I find my mind jumping straight into that pool of memories, only to realise, yet again, it is still mercury and it was never the protective coat […]
Freedom. In. Not. Being. Loved.
Best thing about not being loved. Is that when you hear it the last time. You know it‘s the last time.
Saying. How. You. Feel.
#honesty #feeling #connection #friendshipgoals #relationshipgoals
Entropy. of. Love.
It is a fact. Entropy always wins. In thermodynamics. In life. In self love. In love for others. In love from others. The unavailability of energy in the system at some point always shows up and spins it all into disorder. At some point we simply can no longer fight the gradual decline of self […]
Just. Human.
What will happen, if just for a moment. We be human. Allow ourselves to be human. Not machine. Not facade. Not predetermined. Just raw, sincere, vulnerable human. No fight to win, ego to boost, silent war to wage. Just raw, sincere, vulnerable human. Could we get back lost time and beings?
Often. Wonder.
Often wonder. If for just one day. I could let anyone I have in my 24 hour day see my 24 hour intent. Of just wanting to make happy. Of just wanting to show I mean okay. Of just wanting to try. With them. To make happy. To show okay. But those 24 hours always […]
So. Sad.
Been challenged again today with a case of trusting that someone would show up. Despite many rational warnings. As I trusted them because of who I thought they were. Because of what I thought their character would prove. But yet again. I believed in something, someone, that was not. Someone that could not. It makes […]
Loss.
We lost a mother in our family today. We also lost a story. A voice. A life waiting to be found. We mourn because we know we did not care enough. When she lived her story, spoke her voice and sent her smoke signals into a deaf world. Maybe we will take enough care next […]
There. Is. A. Place.
There is a place I did not know existed. A place I found through pain. Extensive pain. Not through accepting the pain. But through rebelling against it and not believing it existed. And fighting it. And feeling it. And travelling with it. Over many years. That place, that horrible place, which you only reach by […]
